disappointment
i feel nothing but disappointment and a lot of numbness.
i did not revise any work.
i did not do any hmk.
i did not do anything constructive.
and they left me like that alone.
i called them.
no one answered.
i felt so damn lost.
can't she just say there's a practical and we're going to the lab?
why did she say there's no practical?
lols.
my throat is xxx now.
there is rehearsal tmr.
syf is less than three weeks away.
in 19 days i mean.
we broke up.
i wasn't the only one.
he is just a friend.
a kinda close one.
lols, there is no difference actually, friends or not, hold hands or not.
we still spend time together.
still breathing.
still friends.
i have my physics practical ws infront of me.
i suddenly remembered there is a HCL test tmr.
i mean block test, 20% of the whole year.
fail it and wait to die.
dammit.
i feel damn emo.
i miss my mom.
but every time we meet, she scolds.
i don't get it.
i never can.
i quarrelled with dad everyday too.
i mean, i'm used to it anyway.
i don't wanna go back to an empty shell.
i don't want it to be like this.
it should not be like this.
everything is gone.
i hate living like this.
i hate my life right now.
there's math quiz on Quadratic Inequalities.
i am prepared to die.
there's tuition later.
that's the only time i spend outside school mugging i guess.
i don't feel like doing anything.
i can't seem to do things the way i did last time.
something is missing.
i don't know what.
i don't wanna.
i don't like.
*blank*
i did not revise any work.
i did not do any hmk.
i did not do anything constructive.
and they left me like that alone.
i called them.
no one answered.
i felt so damn lost.
can't she just say there's a practical and we're going to the lab?
why did she say there's no practical?
lols.
my throat is xxx now.
there is rehearsal tmr.
syf is less than three weeks away.
in 19 days i mean.
we broke up.
i wasn't the only one.
he is just a friend.
a kinda close one.
lols, there is no difference actually, friends or not, hold hands or not.
we still spend time together.
still breathing.
still friends.
i have my physics practical ws infront of me.
i suddenly remembered there is a HCL test tmr.
i mean block test, 20% of the whole year.
fail it and wait to die.
dammit.
i feel damn emo.
i miss my mom.
but every time we meet, she scolds.
i don't get it.
i never can.
i quarrelled with dad everyday too.
i mean, i'm used to it anyway.
i don't wanna go back to an empty shell.
i don't want it to be like this.
it should not be like this.
everything is gone.
i hate living like this.
i hate my life right now.
there's math quiz on Quadratic Inequalities.
i am prepared to die.
there's tuition later.
that's the only time i spend outside school mugging i guess.
i don't feel like doing anything.
i can't seem to do things the way i did last time.
something is missing.
i don't know what.
i don't wanna.
i don't like.
*blank*
