my COLOURFUL life

Pregnancy? What? We're very lucky to have conceived naturally! Some of our friends, colleagues and relatives take many years! Bb is now 34 Weeks Day 1! Counting down less than 1 month time :) This pregnancy was not smooth sailing but we're glad everything is ok now.  Series of scares: At 10 Weeks, First Trimester Test shows 1:90 chance of trisomy anomaly Low hormone Papp-A -> high risk of pre-term labour, miscarriage and pre-eclampsia At 12 Weeks, NIPT test / Harmony test shows 1 in 10,000 chance of trisomy anomaly At 28 Weeks,  Bloody discharge, found bacteria growth and I had to take 1 week of anti-biotics (eww) At 33 Weeks, at a regular check-up, Ultrasound scan shows: 1. Sudden low amniotic fluid from 9cm to 4cm in 1.5 weeks  -> high risk of stillbirth & render natural birth impossible 2. Bb weight-gain from 1.98kg to 2.5kg in 1.5 weeks Doctor did 2 tests on the day of visit: Swab to check if amniotic fluid is leaking CTG Bb in breach position -> have to ...

ROM We got hitched legally! Been 1.5 months already, still can't believe it.... We still say the same jokes WT "I don't friend you already." CT "Then... I marry you lor!" WT "Eeer you threaten me..." Funny how things are now, still the same but a bit different. Different as in our parents are ok with us locking the door during bedtime, stop saying things like "our family is better than yours right? wanna join?" haha... hmms. Valentines day Ate zeechar @Kimly (Bukit Gombak), the usual - cereal prawns, omelette, baby kailan (garlic), half fried chicken... I didn't have much appetite... CT ate most of it... Felt the standard dropped. Of course, I had to drink coca-cola. Been craving coca-cola for 2 weeks already? Both of us didn't think much of it. 1 week prior, I started having PMS symptoms, greasy hair, sore everywhere, and cramping - mild cramping. I didn't think much about it, just drank my very own co...

歌词 這最美的秘密 是我們都在製造巧遇 誰說幸福 只是一種 遠方的消息 思念持續著濃郁 夢甘甜下去 誓言繼續 陪妳 累積所有回憶 暖手的是熱茶 暖心的是 妳一句話 許給你一個家 再圍上 我的牽掛 這故事 開始一個人 我認真 寫成了我們 這段緣分 沒有人轉身 妳也 開始修改劇本 加重我的戲分 初心單純 給了妳的吻 這一生 原本一個人 妳堅持 廝守成我們 所有未來 說好了一起等 青春 的誓言扎了根 願望比誰都深 過了門 永遠是 一家人 這最美的秘密 是我們都在製造巧遇 誰說幸福 只是一種 遠方的消息 思念持續著濃郁 夢甘甜下去 誓言繼續 陪妳 累積所有回憶 暖手的是熱茶 暖心的是 妳一句話 許給你一個家 再圍上 我的牽掛 這故事 開始一個人 我認真 寫成了我們 走過紅塵 再也不怕冷 某天離開 這一座城 我去哪妳都跟 微笑的說 妳是我的人 wo 這一生 原本一個人 妳堅持 廝守成我們 卻小小聲 牽著手在默認 感動的眼神 說願意 走進我的人生 進了門 開了燈 一家人 執子之手 如此溫柔 天長地久 並肩走 妳深情 凝望著我說 幸福 是妳 有了我 這劇本 開始一個人 我認真 寫成了我們 走過紅塵 再也不怕冷 某天離開 這一座城 我去哪妳都跟 微笑的說 妳是我的人 這一生 原本一個人 妳堅持 廝守成我們 卻小小聲 牽著手在默認 感動的眼神 說願意 走進我的人生 進了門 開了燈 一家人 盼來生 依然是 一家人 ------------ 听了这首歌，感触良多。。。 在这个时间点，这首歌对我有特别的意义。 Moving on to the next stage in life, this is the turning point, where “我们" really starts.  There are no words to describe this feeling, it's a mix of many feelings... excited, happy, uncertainty... Looking back, all the 点点滴滴 in our lives, all the tiny things that happe...

It's been a red hot second since my last post *oops*  Life update: Education A levels was OK... I got into NUS and obtained an honors degree yay! *clap clap clap*  Previously contemplated SMU vs NUS and chose NUS because my boyfriend at that time enrolled into NUS Life Sciences...  Boyfriend 7 years later, still the same boyfriend, but upgraded to MANfriend . And we are officially engaged! wow! Such a drastic update... so now my MANfriend is my  fiancé . Shocking IKR.  Sister Sis is about my age when I started blogging (i think?) yeah 1 - 2 years younger than when I first started blogging. WOW. Time really 不等人. Hope she gets into a good school and make good friends who will last a lifetime! Parents Retired for over 10 years! Happily expressing their love language. P.s. I mean shouting and quarrelling every single day at every single opportunity. i.e. ulcers, disagreement over fashion decision, brand of tea one of them bought etc. all the trivial ...

14 days to A levels. I am at the computer lab with Jia Le. I was writing GP AQ when it suddenly struck me: What if I do so bad for A levels that I have no where to go? How will my life become? I am scared. I am paranoid. Everyone tells me to try my best. I think I am. But am I really? Time is running out.

人生嘛 好短暂。 生气呢 浪费脑力。 难过呢 费精力。 如果能够 不生气 不难过 不嫉妒 那人生该会多么美好。 我难过 我不开心 我伤心 我不明白 为什么你们不了解？ 我真的很努力很努力了 我感觉不到你们的支持 我只看到 失望 生气 不了解。 我好像闭上眼睛 然后 永远 笔者眼睛

You have a gift. You can melt my sorrows and stress away, better than magic. You are so awesome. I love you  ♥   ~

So... What is it? Numbbedddd. I did a stupid thing. As always. How to trust if I keep digging things out from the past? I keep digging even when I've reached the bottom. I dynamited my way into hell and expected to see heaven. Lol duh. It's hell duh. Reality really? Irreplaceable - that's how I see. Is that confidence? Or a facade? Oh My God what else do I want? Blast the skull open and pull out the brain? Or a cleaner method with tweezers through the nose? Is there really an answer to my question? Or are you going to tell me what you've always told me? "like that lorh." Irresponsible - that's how I see it. Escaping? From? Me? Reality seriously? Wrecked  ? Oh My God what else do I want. Foolish Foolish Fools. It's happening. GUILT-RIDDEN. I killed you and you thanked me. GUILT-RIDDEN. WHYYYYY ):  And you'll tell me in my dreams that I'm supposed to ...

男人不坏，女人不爱？ 这坏是什么？ 坏在哪里？ 女人是变态吗？ 女人爱的是什么坏？ 是烂苹果的坏？ 是腐尸的坏？ 是撒谎的坏？ 是劈腿的坏？ 我不明白。我应该明白吗？ 也许我会好受一点点。。。 但他。。。不坏。。。 只是有点普通的男孩儿的怪。 会难过但不会太伤心，不会哭地稀里哗啦好几年。 只是过了好久 心里还会感到。。。 不好受。 因为她不是我。 他说是因为担心我会难过。 他说因为他爱我。 他说他不会因这微微的不足离开我。 无论如何我还是怕。 怕那天会像那天一样。 怕哪一天那拥抱、额头上的吻、紧紧的手牵手将会成为历史。 痛苦的历史。 男人坏了，女人怎么爱？

Oh well... Oh well I should be studying... (I swear I will not use this opening for subsequent posts for the rest of the year, if there will be any more...) Class thing: Expectedly, thepersonwhomishallnotname retained. Things got better. I get to sit with the girls because now there's an empty seat. I do not feel welcomed. I am not supposed to right? The main reason why I am not interacting with them is because 1. same reason as last year. 2. they have nothing to talk to me about 3. I have nothing to talk to them about. I realised that there is no common topic to talk about and they mostly talk about rumours, especially bgf things. Like wth, why so kpo?? Any way, they are nice people as long as they are no talking about me. hmmm, I think they do. OH WELL. Also, a friend snatch friend bf issue. Honestly I think the guy is a fukedupasshole. I do not want to be the one in the middle. I should not have cared about her feelings, she fukingspreadfuckeduprumoursaboutmetooanyway. Arh, just...

The Color of Love For some folks the color of love is Red ... fiery and hot, For others the color is Blue ... placid and calm, For some it's Yellow... caring but cautious, For others it's Orange ... rich and fruitful, For some the color is Lavender... gentle and kind, For others it's Purple... sacrificing and giving, For some it's Green ... with its go, go, go, For others the color is White ... pure and undefiled. But for me the color is Rainbow ... Red and Blue, Yellow and Orange, Lavender and Purple, Green and White. The Rainbow painted by God is a symbol of forever-love, And as long as there is sunshine and rain there will always be Rainbows, And as long as there are Rainbows there will always be forever-love for you.

First and last post on circle lens! Gonna throw them away soon :X OMG look so scary. HAHA. Take care in TW darling! I love you :)

黑武士-林俊杰歌词 有了天空 为何世界 还有 地心引力 有了希望 为何绝望 还是 如影随形 有了勇气 就让哭泣 埋藏过去 去写一种历史 名字叫奇迹 如果恐惧就像火炬 那就让它沸腾我血液 带我到绝地 喔 我才能完全 觉醒 在黑暗 的对面 是光明 光明 后面 是阴影 正义 邪恶 是谁 有权 定义 在命运 的前面 我怀疑 在面具 后面 铁一般决心 光荣的牺牲 也是种荣誉 要扭转命运 最后的反击 不怕人说 不要人懂 我要证明 明天我的姓名 将会是传奇 失败会设下陷阱 没有胜利会发出邀请 只有我自己 喔 能够还我自己 公平 还我自己 公平 当你遇到困难 请别放弃 请别怀疑。 只有你自己可以还你自己公平。 你要坚持 坚强地 继续 前进。 快来不及了。 已慢下脚步 就 追不上了。 追不上了 就 失去了。 快来不及了。 请问 我几时才能看见 彩虹？ 请问 你是我 失败的理由吗？ 请问 我还在意妈？ 那你呢？ 快来不及了。 谢谢你 一直陪伴着我。 让我 感受 这些。。。 感受。 是难受吗？ 是快乐吗？ 是幸福吗？ 不懂，我只知道。 快来不及了。 直觉告诉我 快来不及了。 lol fails miserably. anyway. ya, emo. duno why. ):

Insights and Reflections Dec Holiday Homework. I haven't had time to read the articles... I'll just do some research while trolling online... Ahh, my priorities are screwed x.x... Exercise One - Education Priorities in Singapore. Ten education issues the new government should address Setting education priorities Gove spells out education priorities for 'a new era ' Obama Outlines Five Top Education Priorities Exercise 5 - Singaporeans make good managers, not good leaders. What is a leader? What makes a good leader? What is a manager? What makes a good manager? What is the difference between leader and manager? In his 1989 book “On Becoming a Leader,” Warren Bennis composed a list of the differences: – The manager administers; the leader innovates. – The manager is a copy; the leader is an original. – The manager maintains; the leader develops. – The manager focuses on systems and structure; the leader focuses on people. – The manager relies on control; the leader inspir...