you know right that day...
you know right that day...
umm you didn't acknowledge my presence umm.
there are some explanations for it but i'm not interested in that.
not that i'm not interested in what you think abt me/us but yeah, essentially what i care about is whether you've become a better person etc. okay sounds a bit vague but umm k i shall continue.
i felt so damn upset that day you know.
it's like sheeze crapz like i was so happy and like eh can you like at least you know say hi or something. okay not like i want like attention from you or what but i missed you so much.
okay this is damn weird. i know i cant blame you for how i'm feeling. i tried to catagorise this feeling but it doesnt belong anywhere.
it's like you don't belong to the earth. you like an alien or whatever that has damn strong attraction. attraction even stronger than the blackholes.
you know right surprisingly i felt sad not because i missed those times you know. it's like idk an evolved kind of sadness... i think im going crazy.
i know what i did was retarded. grabbed the pole when ur big fat black arm was resting on it. i scratched you and yo bloody didn't respond. it's childish i know but hahahaha i touched you XD bian tai///it shows that you are a mean rabbit.
you know right i didn't say hi because i'm afraid of rejection like i say hi! then turn ur head to talk to ur friend or whatever. its like that day on the bus in the morning. i GRABBED ur arm and said YO MORNING. you didn't even turn around to look at me. i felt so bloody annoyed and embarrassed i swear i will never talk to you again.
i have no idea what makes me so crazy over you. you've no manners and you treat me like shit. actually it's kinda fun seeing ur expression hahaha. so stupid. every second i see you, i'll store ur movements in my head, replaying it when i'm alone, in a quiet environment. i'll laugh then i'll cry. then i'll sleep.
it's like seeing you or not will determine what time i'll sleep LOLz.
people tell me you've moved on? like serously after me there were plenty, still a lot now. did you treasure them? i tried to but i can't. i felt so shi bai. fail. tried so hard, none of them worked out. why? why didn't they work out? why can't i be like you? i know only i'll have the answer but i haven't figured it out.
novels are fake. they depict love as something so sweet, but why it is so torturous for me? i mean i don't even know what feeling it is. but its damn painful its true.
maybe i'm going through this "pain stage" bec i'm healing ^^ trying to stay optimistic but i can't really be happy cos i miss you so badly i think my heart is exploding.
i shut off all my senses, let myself drown in this sorrow. finally woke up when i saw my report book. bloody hell how am i going to promote if this continues. er,, shucks. shouldn't have done that.
maybe shutting off my senses doesn't work. i should lock you outside permanently. you have no idea how many times i searched for your info online. it's like an obsession. it's like a mini OCD.
stop it weiting.
stop it.
wake up.
WAKE UP YOU STUPID.
umm you didn't acknowledge my presence umm.
there are some explanations for it but i'm not interested in that.
not that i'm not interested in what you think abt me/us but yeah, essentially what i care about is whether you've become a better person etc. okay sounds a bit vague but umm k i shall continue.
i felt so damn upset that day you know.
it's like sheeze crapz like i was so happy and like eh can you like at least you know say hi or something. okay not like i want like attention from you or what but i missed you so much.
okay this is damn weird. i know i cant blame you for how i'm feeling. i tried to catagorise this feeling but it doesnt belong anywhere.
it's like you don't belong to the earth. you like an alien or whatever that has damn strong attraction. attraction even stronger than the blackholes.
you know right surprisingly i felt sad not because i missed those times you know. it's like idk an evolved kind of sadness... i think im going crazy.
i know what i did was retarded. grabbed the pole when ur big fat black arm was resting on it. i scratched you and yo bloody didn't respond. it's childish i know but hahahaha i touched you XD bian tai///it shows that you are a mean rabbit.
you know right i didn't say hi because i'm afraid of rejection like i say hi! then turn ur head to talk to ur friend or whatever. its like that day on the bus in the morning. i GRABBED ur arm and said YO MORNING. you didn't even turn around to look at me. i felt so bloody annoyed and embarrassed i swear i will never talk to you again.
i have no idea what makes me so crazy over you. you've no manners and you treat me like shit. actually it's kinda fun seeing ur expression hahaha. so stupid. every second i see you, i'll store ur movements in my head, replaying it when i'm alone, in a quiet environment. i'll laugh then i'll cry. then i'll sleep.
it's like seeing you or not will determine what time i'll sleep LOLz.
people tell me you've moved on? like serously after me there were plenty, still a lot now. did you treasure them? i tried to but i can't. i felt so shi bai. fail. tried so hard, none of them worked out. why? why didn't they work out? why can't i be like you? i know only i'll have the answer but i haven't figured it out.
novels are fake. they depict love as something so sweet, but why it is so torturous for me? i mean i don't even know what feeling it is. but its damn painful its true.
maybe i'm going through this "pain stage" bec i'm healing ^^ trying to stay optimistic but i can't really be happy cos i miss you so badly i think my heart is exploding.
i shut off all my senses, let myself drown in this sorrow. finally woke up when i saw my report book. bloody hell how am i going to promote if this continues. er,, shucks. shouldn't have done that.
maybe shutting off my senses doesn't work. i should lock you outside permanently. you have no idea how many times i searched for your info online. it's like an obsession. it's like a mini OCD.
stop it weiting.
stop it.
wake up.
WAKE UP YOU STUPID.
